Monday, November 27, 2017

Is Jesus Christ Worth It?

I know it has been forever since I have posted. My apologies:)

I have been thinking a lot about my life and where I am today. 

Asking myself questions like: What does it mean to be set-apart from this world unto Christ? and what does that look like today in this world? There are so many distractions out there!

 

It has been said of Amy Carmichael in her biography, "in every generation there seems to be a few who make another choice- a choice to follow Christ into the boundless depths of a set-apart existence.



I ask myself: Am I willing to be one of the few?
Am I prepared to testify that of all the possibilities "none but Christ" will satisfy?" 

One of the greatest lessons the Lord is teaching me through my questioning is Himself. His character, and who He is. 

 

The more I seek Him the more I find Him and the more I find Him the more I love Him. "Lord give me your heart transforming my desires until they are like yours."

I am not perfect. Far from it. But I serve a God that is and that is very good at being God. Who loves to pull off the impossible. Who loves each one of us deeply.

We watched a Dvd last night called The Insanity of God. Awesome! a must watch:) and One of the questions that was asked on that was "Is Jesus Christ worth it?"

I am still asking myself that question, still thinking it through. Don't get me wrong I am a christian. But I think too often we just say things with our mouth because we know the right answer, but deep inside we know that We need God to give us His heart.


I long to have a greater understanding of what it means to be set-apart. What it means to have His heart. We need each other, we need to encourage and pray for one another. To remind each other who our God is: Kind, loving, forgiving, merciful,etc...


Don't forget when you ask yourself if Jesus Christ is worth it...You were more then worth it to Him. And If He had to He would do it all over again just for you. He died and loved us while we were yet sinners. He took our place. why? because we are loved more than we could ever imagine. As I write I am reminding myself as well:)

Monday, June 5, 2017

He Giveth More Grace

"He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater; He sendeth more strength when the labors increase, to added affliction He addeth His mercy; to multiplied trials, His multiplied peace.



When we have exhausted our store of endurance, when our strength has failed ere the day is half gone, when we reach the end of our hoarded resources, our Fathers full giving is only begun.



His love has no limit, His grace has no measure, His power has no boundary known unto men, for out of  His infinite riches in Jesus, He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again."





"What is grace? Grace is love that seeks you out when you have nothing to give in return. Grace is love coming at you that has nothing to do with you. Grace is being loved when you are unlovable. It is being loved when you are the opposite of lovable."
                                                                                                               ~ Paul Zahl

" Grace refuses to make exceptions, no matter how bad the case."
                                                                                                                 ~ Kim Crandall

I am so thankful for His grace!!!!!!!! 


Monday, May 15, 2017

Habakkuk 3:17-19

Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stall's:
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.


I love the feel of the long green grass between my bare toe's, the sound of the whispering trees in the front yard, the sweet smell of the lilacs that are growing on the side of the house, hearing bird's sing long into the afternoon:


Puffy white clouds that sail across blue sky, watching the fresh clean laundry blowing in the breeze, sticking colorful flower's in my hair, eating chicken salad on the front porch etc...




I desire to sing along with the bird's accepting all that God allows. I want to take my shoe's off and dance with the dandelion's. I want to laugh, and spin with delight. I want to trust even in the dark.

 
I have dreams, good dreams... but the Lord is teaching me to come to the place of being able to say "Although... yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation."

 
The Lord God is my strength, and He will make my feet like hinds' feet, and He will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments.




Friday, May 5, 2017

Keep your eye's on me



It's strange as you get older how life has a way of making you stop to really think.

I ask myself as I walk along the dusty road "wait, where am I going and what am I doing, and what is my purpose anyway?"



Questions like "what grand thing should I accomplish next, or what dream should I make come true?" etc...

As the road gets more crowded and my heart starts to get anxious, and the fear of loosing or falling behind grips me, I hear a quiet and soft voice that says

 

"Keep your eye's on me. when all you can think about is the pain you loose sight of me."

I turn to face my Beloved and friend, He smile's and continues "I will place you in your purpose when you purpose to place me above everything else."




I reply surrendering my will "be my dream maker Lord, change my heart transforming my desires until they are like yours."

The next morning I find that I need to surrender my will again. Deep inside I find that I am still loved just the same.






Friday, April 28, 2017




                                    The Lord thy God in the midst of thee
                        is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice
                        over thee with joy; he will rest in his love,
                        he will joy over thee with singing.

                                                          Zephaniah 3:17

           

Friday, April 21, 2017

A Time for Everything

Spring is here! and with it has arrived the rainy season. 
The tulips and daffodils that are poking through the soil rejoice but the cement in the basement is not so sure.

Not every season has the same affect on everything. So true in our own lives.




He hath made everything beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. Ecc3:11

Growth is required in every season, even if it means being buried and forgotten in the ground. And in the Spring when the tulips come into full bloom I am reminded that it didn't just happen overnight, there was a time of growing. In other to truly live they had to be under ground and even in there growth was required. There is a purpose behind every season we go through. "Contrary to what we often believe God doesn't make mistakes."

I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be forever; nothing can be put to it, nor anything taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him. Ecc3:14




God determines the season of our lives, when to prune, when to feed, and when to harvest. God is always at work even when we don't see the results right away. Sometimes I ask myself why? why can't I understand this...

I am so thankful for His love! His love that whispers in my ear that I am His beloved mess. I am so thankful that He never gives up on me, because I am a slow learner. God's love is perfect for our imperfect life.


Let us be found faithful in every season, keeping in mind that He is enough to get us through.


O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who hath been his counsellor?

It's beyond me. His way's are higher! With the little understanding I have I choose to believe by His faith that He is bigger then all of my mess.

                               There is a time for everything! 



Thursday, April 6, 2017

Trusting Him with the tomorrow's



"It has been said that no man ever sank under the burden of the day.  It's when tomorrow's burden is added to the burden of today that the weight is more than a man can bear.  Never load yourselves so, my friends.  If you find yourselves so loaded, at least remember this; It is your own doing, not God's.  He begs you to leave the future to Him and to mind the present.

                                                                                     ~ George MacDonald







As I sit on the couch facing the warm sun that is coming through our big glass window I ask myself "what am I trying to control instead of trusting God?"




I hold on so long and so tight that sometimes it takes a rude awaking to help me see that I have not truly surrendered.  Too often I worry about the future and forget about today.  I long to have my name become Thabeh, the young women who never worries.  I trust God to do this work in me.







"This is the blessed life-not anxious to see far in front, nor eager to choose the path, but quietly following behind the Shepherd, one step at a time.  The Shepherd was always out  in front of the sheep, He was down in the front.  any attack upon them had to take Him into account.  Now God is down in the front.  He is in the tomorrows.  It is tomorrow that fills men with dread.  God is there already.  All the tomorrows of our life have to pass Him before they can get to us."

                                                                                                                  ~ F.B.Meyer





Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it.  1 Thess 5:24