Friday, April 28, 2017

                                    The Lord thy God in the midst of thee
                        is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice
                        over thee with joy; he will rest in his love,
                        he will joy over thee with singing.

                                                          Zephaniah 3:17


Friday, April 21, 2017

A Time for Everything

Spring is here! and with it has arrived the rainy season. 
The tulips and daffodils that are poking through the soil rejoice but the cement in the basement is not so sure.

Not every season has the same affect on everything. So true in our own lives.

He hath made everything beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end. Ecc3:11

Growth is required in every season, even if it means being buried and forgotten in the ground. And in the Spring when the tulips come into full bloom I am reminded that it didn't just happen overnight, there was a time of growing. In other to truly live they had to be under ground and even in there growth was required. There is a purpose behind every season we go through. "Contrary to what we often believe God doesn't make mistakes."

I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be forever; nothing can be put to it, nor anything taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him. Ecc3:14

God determines the season of our lives, when to prune, when to feed, and when to harvest. God is always at work even when we don't see the results right away. Sometimes I ask myself why? why can't I understand this...

I am so thankful for His love! His love that whispers in my ear that I am His beloved mess. I am so thankful that He never gives up on me, because I am a slow learner. God's love is perfect for our imperfect life.

Let us be found faithful in every season, keeping in mind that He is enough to get us through.

O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who hath been his counsellor?

It's beyond me. His way's are higher! With the little understanding I have I choose to believe by His faith that He is bigger then all of my mess.

                               There is a time for everything! 

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Trusting Him with the tomorrow's

"It has been said that no man ever sank under the burden of the day.  It's when tomorrow's burden is added to the burden of today that the weight is more than a man can bear.  Never load yourselves so, my friends.  If you find yourselves so loaded, at least remember this; It is your own doing, not God's.  He begs you to leave the future to Him and to mind the present.

                                                                                     ~ George MacDonald

As I sit on the couch facing the warm sun that is coming through our big glass window I ask myself "what am I trying to control instead of trusting God?"

I hold on so long and so tight that sometimes it takes a rude awaking to help me see that I have not truly surrendered.  Too often I worry about the future and forget about today.  I long to have my name become Thabeh, the young women who never worries.  I trust God to do this work in me.

"This is the blessed life-not anxious to see far in front, nor eager to choose the path, but quietly following behind the Shepherd, one step at a time.  The Shepherd was always out  in front of the sheep, He was down in the front.  any attack upon them had to take Him into account.  Now God is down in the front.  He is in the tomorrows.  It is tomorrow that fills men with dread.  God is there already.  All the tomorrows of our life have to pass Him before they can get to us."

                                                                                                                  ~ F.B.Meyer

Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it.  1 Thess 5:24

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Moms hair falls slowly onto the kitchen floor.  The hair dresser clips off any long hair that dose not belong, layering as she go's.
They both talk, each taking turns to keep the conversation rolling.

I watch the wet hair fall and it makes me want to let go:

Let go of this person who fights what is and sometimes struggles to surrender. Let go of the fear that keeps me back from fully loving.

Let go of this selfish person that often gets in the way of fully embracing what He has for me in that moment.

Verily, verily, I say unto you, except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone; but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.   John 12:24

In other to truly live I must first die, loose myself, decrease so that He can increase.  So He can have His way with me.  

I ask myself am I willing to let go of myself? my dreams? my hopes? my future?

Lord clip away anything that dose not belong. Equip me with the strength to be an overcomer.

The swing in the front yard sways back and forth from the cold wind.  All is well.

He is trustworthy. I can trust Him with everything I try to hold on to. I can trust Him with the unknown. I can trust Him because He is only good.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017





                                             HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN?


Saturday, January 28, 2017

The Cross, My Reminder.

Like Ann Voskamp I've marked on my wrist a cross with a black marker. To remind me that my name is beloved, that I am loved more then I could ever imagine, that in other to truly live I must die to self even in the small moments. A reminder to let myself love and be loved, I am enough because I have Him living in me and He is always enough, that He dwells in the brokenness. A reminder that "I am not my brokenness, I am not my yesterday, I am not my messes, I am not my failures, I am brave enough for today, because He is, I am strong enough for what's coming, because He is. And I am enough for all that is because He always is." - Ann Voskamp
A reminder to make Christ present in every situation. A reminder of my true Identity.

As I wash dishes and work with my hands through out the day the cross on my wrist slowly fades, and too often I forget. When I remember I go over it all again with my black marker. In the middle of the night when satan seems to whisper in my ears the loudest his lies I remember that cross I've marked on my wrist, and gently place my other hand over it and recall the reasons I've placed it there.

"Self-lies are the destroyer of the soul because they drown out the sacred voice that can never stop whispering your name: Beloved." - Ann Voskamp

In the middle of the day when the tears start to slowly appear in the corner of my eyes, In a moment I see that cross on my wrist and remember that my name is beloved, that I am forgiven, that He is enough, that it is finished, that I am free.

"In the middle of things seemingly not working out for us-God is working out something in us."
                                                                                                                      - Ann Voskamp


" A single word can be a powerful thing.
It can ripple in the pond that changes everything.
It can be sharp and biting or rich and soft and slow."
                                                                   - Ali Edwards

And so my word for this new year is LOVE;

A word to focus on, meditate on, and reflect upon as I go about my daily life.

"Love is our deepest longing- and what we mostly fear. Love breaks us vulnerably open-and then can break us with rejection."  - Ann Voskamp

"Love is the willingness to be broken into." - Ann Voskamp

"You cannot be love until you feel you are beloved." - Ann Voskamp